invincible summers

in the middle of winter I at last discovered that there was in me an invincible summer. (albert camus)

a break January 19, 2007

Filed under: mental illness,stigma — clementine @ 8:21 pm
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i’m taking a break from this blog. i need to focus on a few things and step away from here. my grandmother is doing much better. unfortunately we found out yesterday morning that my sister requires another surgery and she’ll have it on february 2nd.

meanwhile, i’m not working. there is no work in the immediate future, and our state film commissioner “resigned”. and money is tight. which makes it difficult to pay the bills let alone fill my prescription that insurance barely covers. i’ve been a bit manic and depressed because i can’t afford to take my full dosage. it’s concerning me and yet i’m too exhausted to do anything about it. like, find a new doctor. or find a way to get sample pills, etc.

i was in the emergency room last weekend because of severe abdominal pain. after a catscan they suggested i see an OBGYN for a pelvic ultrasound. i was hoping the pain would go away and it didn’t. the demerol made me sick. and it pissed me off. 30 pills for $11.00. the going rate for my lamictal? i can get 2 pills for $11.00.

after numerous phone calls trying to get an OBGYN to see me immediately i had an appointment this morning. the ultrasound showed 2 cysts on my right ovary. at least i know the where this pain is coming from. i will wait it out and have another ultrasound in 6 weeks. hopefully they’ll disappear and no surgery will be required. i told her the demerol was making me sick, she prescribed lortab. 30 pills for $5.47.

that’s part of the mental illness stigma for you. i have great insurance. they cover pretty much everything BUT mental illness. so maybe it’s not so great.

anyway. that’s all. be well everyone.


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