invincible summers

in the middle of winter I at last discovered that there was in me an invincible summer. (albert camus)

a new year January 5, 2007

Filed under: antipsychotics,big pharma,depression — clementine @ 1:50 pm
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i haven’t been around much. we’ve been busy working on the script, which is coming along well. i’m about to start the long, tedious project of organizing all of my days in the film business to submit to the union i’m joining. it’s a ton of paperwork and will require digging through 8 years of it. the payoff will be nice if i get there. better health insurance. a pension fund. bigger paychecks, etc. but, i’ve been putting it off for months.

meanwhile, my grandmother is still sick and they have put her on five different meds since she spent christmas day in the hospital. two of which were anticonvulsants for treatment of the pain from the shingles. that made me nervous and i called her doctor. he thinks they will work, but i asked him to stay away from prescribing antipsychotics and antidepressants (which they seem to do in some shingles cases). i was on the phone with my grandma most of new year’s eve and day. she’s 84 and has no family nearby to take care of her. she’s my only grandparent still alive, i lost one to colon cancer, one to lung cancer and the other to diabetes. i’m not ready to lose her.

and then there’s me. suddenly i’m depressed. (i think, i can’t even tell anymore…) the sign would be sleeping. and i’ve been doing a lot of it. i’ve always been nocturnal and always slept a lot. but since starting the lamictal last december, i’ve only needed 6-8 hours. i recently cut my dosage in half because i can’t afford it and i’m sleeping more. not sure if that’s the connection or not. but i hate the feeling of waking up, having had plenty of sleep and still feeling tired. kinda like my days of seroquel, although not as bad.

speaking of seroquel. so much has been going on in the world of antipsychotics (zyprexa, abilify, risperdal and seroquel). if you head over to the new york times, you will see alex berenson has been very busy. numerous articles on the eli lilly lawsuits. i might write about them later but for now, i’m letting it all settle in. if you click on his name above you will find all of the articles. and if you or a loved one is taking an antipsychotic, you should read every single one of them.

this alex guy is my new hero, along with jim gottstein and this former big pharma rep:
Zyprexa Drug Rep

oh, and, happy new year. i hope it’s a good one. for everyone.


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